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I thought I might die tonight…. it was all such a sudden thing to happen. One moment life was normal, the next, the knife-edge trembled. It’s the one thing you can never allow to happen, since that knife-edge is so darned sharp – it doesn’t give many second chances.
It doesn’t matter how, nor even maybe why, except to me. I’m so very tired. Not just the physical aspect of tiredness, but the pain in my heart, in my spirit, which never seems to leave. I’d give anything to get back to that feeling of “normal” – whatever that may be. I’m wondering if it really exists any longer. Just a lack of sleep, I believe! That and a pervasive feeling of unease and loneliness.
I’m so very sorry for such a short and miserable post. I had planned something very different. Hopefully tomorrow when consciousness returns finally. I am planning on sleep, just not when it should happen – very bad of and for me.
Thank you, my dear friends, I pray you understand a human frailty. (I’m a walking accident at present.) I’m not sure I do or forgive myself for it. (There’s the perfectionist at work again!) Stupid damned accidents overtake everything. No – I didn’t plan the stupidity, I simply stopped looking and there I was, right in the middle of it and scrambling to make things right. Make things right – is there ever such a silly phrase? I was trying to fix things up. I always do – perhaps that’s my penance, I always manage to make it right again.
Something nice for tomorrow – I promise. 🙂 I’m just too frazzled to get there right now, but it has pictures and tantalizing thoughts, all those nice and happy things I want me to be all about. You know – that irrepressible smile, full of promise and laughter. That’s me….. after a few hours of sleep.
Any publishing snafus were the responsibility of a supposed great phone that has proved a dud….. if anyone has any tips for a Samsung Galaxy S5 – short of smashing it to pieces (gleefully tonight) – I would love to hear them. (or to get Telstra to take it back and give me a different phone which works ALL the time. That’s a hint to any Telstra people who might be able to help a frazzled, sleep deprived, accident prone …hmm)
Blessings from the klutz.
Susan 💖
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Owls and Orchids 
Hey Sue, you sound like you and reality has parted company 🙂 First and foremost…sleep…let your body heal itself from the ground up. Sending you peace and healing from the many who care out here. Just take it easy and know your in our hearts.
As for the phone, it is only interfering with your sleep, and anyway, if it’s still under warranty you can ask the nice people at Telstra to replace it.
Take care, heal, and then dazzle us with that beauty you have inside to grace your pages. Namaste
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Umm -more there than at first blush….. enpugh said. I can email – would love to talk to someone….. but I lost your email. Checking your site in a mo. 🙂
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Sleep Darling Susan, I’ll watch over everything while you rest.
Ray XXX
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Did you try the chakra system I told you about? Good to see you’re still with us.
Cheers
Laurie. xox
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Yes, I did – and it worked a treat. It has a hard job when I’m (cough) overwrought. I think it was snap time and I missed the signal change… no permanent harm done (cough, cough, wink, wink). I’m here and I’ll be bloody back on track if it kills me 😉 Understanding where someone else is coming from is the best means of getting back on track, if onky that damned monkey would go away!
Thanks Laurie,
Ciao, Susan xox
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That’s good, you can disregard my previous inquiry. It’s good to see you are determined to be here. Overwrought eh? It doesn’t hurt to let your wrought get over you now and then. 🙂 Monkey? Not the monkey on the back is it?
Cheers
Laurie. xox
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Nail on the head Laurie – I think I’m carrying a whole troop of the blighters. Not doing much for muscle relaxation either. A good meditation technique maybe??? Hint hint, wink wink… pretty please 🙂
Ciao
Susan xox
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They’re annoying aren’t they? I think it needs to go deeper than a relaxation or meditation technique. See the next response.
Laurie.xox
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Following along 😉
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I wish I could take your pain from you. Big virtual hugs to you!
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As I would yours April. Hugs back at you 🙂
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First off, Susan, I’m impressed you know the name of your phone! Mine is a Samsung something and I don’t like it much either. 😉
As for your post, you have no need to apologise to anyone. We all have days where the monkey wins. We’re human.
I know I’m reading backwards here so I hope today is better for you and that you kick monkey butt. Take care.x
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Many thanks – I feel I’ve attracted a damned troop of the blighters, but as they always say, this too shall pass, just with a lot of mankey poo in the process. Boy I was tempted then 🙂
The only reason I know what the damned phone is called is because it has caused so much trouble – even a disagreement with the office boy! lol
Blessings, Susan x
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Sending you healing energy right now. Never worry about being human. It is burden for us all in one way or another. Hugs.
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Thanks you for the sweet comment. That old overwhelming feling is hard to shake off at times. But I will get there…. too stubborn to give in. 🙂
Hugs back.
Susan x
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Keep safe and keep plugging. You’re worth it, I have no doubt of it!
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